I'll be having dinner with Avee and the gang tonight. And I'm sooo excited despite the fact that I'm so physically drained already.

One more day left before my long vacation!!! Very, very excited!!!

Want it to be 6 pm already!!!

Hay!!! What a long day this has been!

I woke up at 7 in the morning (actually, I was awaken by my mum) to meet my second degree cousins in Angono, Rizal. We were supposed to leave by 9:30 but Auntie Lolit (my mother's cousin), Inday (Auntie Lolit's landlady) and Izel (Aunti Lolit's daughter; my second degree cousin) arrived late. By 11 pm, we were able to leave Katipunan and hed to Angono Rizal.

We arrived at Angono at around 12 noon and we left at 5:00 pm. We spent our first three hours sleeping (fun noh?!) and the next 2 hours introducing ourselves and exchanging gifts (oh! eating was somewhere it between).

It was a tiring trip. I don't even know if it was worth it. I guess, in the long run, it is. I got to know four more second degree cousins today.

"if there's so much i must be, can i still just be me? the way i am. can i trust in my own heart. or am i just one part of some big plan" - Kiara, Lion King

hmm... for somebody... i know i shouldn't be afraid but right now, i just cannot imagine a life with somebody else but you... will you ever know how i feel for you? will you ever feel the same for me?

I'm so scared that you will see
All the weakness inside of me
I'm so scared of letting go
That the pain I've hid will show
I know you want to hear me speak
But I'm afraid that if I start to
I'll never stop

I want you to know
You belong in my life
I love the hope
I see in your eyes
For you I would fly
At least I would try
For you I'll take
The last flight out

I'm afraid that
You will leave
As my secrets
Have been revealed
In my dreams
You'll always stay
Every breathing moment from now
I know you want to hear me speak
But I'm afraid that if I start to
I'll never stop

I cannot hold back
The truth no more
I let you wait too long
Although it's hard and scares me so
A life without you scares me more

shucks! i'm so pathetic... i'm so pathetic.

"I know I cannot do this. None of us can undo what we've done, or relive a life already recorded. But if Professor Morris Schwartz taught me anything at all, it was this: there is no such thing as "too late" in life. He was changing until the day he said good-bye." - Mitch Albom, "Tuesdays with Morrie"

This day was supposed to be the most hectic day my life has had so far. I was supposed to attend a 10:00 am meeting at McDo for "Ripples," an apostolate me and a few friends are working to bring about. At lunch, I was supposed to have a party with my SCB department (and friends). 2:00pm - 5:00pm was supposed to be my every-other-saturday charity event. And lastly, at 6:30pm I was supposed to meet my college friends over dinner and come what may.

However, the only thing that happened today was the Christmas party with my SCB officemates (and friends). I was fetched by Sir Ronald at 10:00 and we arrived at Ms. Lora's place at 11-ish. My other officemates (and friends) arrived shortly after. The party officially began at 12-ish or 1-ish and it ended (at least for me) at a little past 6. But because of the heavy rains, we opted to stay a little longer (since it's hard to drive under the rain). Just for proof, here is a picture of me and my officemates (all in our respective costumes) taken from my camera: (that's Ms. Ronald, Ms. Nic, Ms. Angie, Me, Aiee, Patrick, Ms. Ellen)



The time right now is 10:00pm. I opted not to spend time with my college friends anymore. Although I feel rather depressed for choosing to do so, I think I made the right decision. I think I've stressed myself much already. I just hope they can forgive me for standing them up (and would you believe it, it was me who set the dinner and come what may!!!).

So there, that's my life today. I stood up my 10:00 meeting for an apostolate. I stood up my every-other-saturday charity event. I stood up my college friends. Can these things, perhaps, make me evil? Why do I feel depressed?

the frog - where's the prince?

It’s this feeling all over again. I feel like a frog trapped in some bottomless pit unable to decipher which is up and which is down. Trapped, yes, that’s the word. I’m trapped. There’s no escaping for me.

i just had confession!!! :)

i'm sick! cough and colds. and yes, in the head too.

i haven't had any great sleep for nearly two weeks now. and i'm not about to have any great sleeps for the month of december, or at least, not until december 25.

i want to go home and rest. but i don't know where home is.

what to do? what to do? i'm so near burning out.

What a weekend this has been! I went home rather late last Friday because my SCB friends wanted to chat a little over a cup of coffee. It turned out that only Avee planned on buying coffee while the rest decided to contribute money (to be able to buy food for everybody else), and the little chat turned out to be a two-hour discussion.

The two Belgian waffles (from Starbucks) that we shared were uber delicious. I liked the strwberry-flavor Belgian waffle the best! The coffee cake as well as the donuts (from the same store) were also very delicious. It was my first time to eat any of Starbuck's food (pathetic!) although for these past few days, I've been having one frap over another.

Yesterday was more hectic. The original plan was: (1) attend the blessing of the Pentecost Chuch of Loyola Heights at 9am, (2) attend meeting for Apostolate at McDo at 10am, (3) teach music to street children from 2pm to 5 pm, and (4) go to Abby's place for a movie marathon. Unfortunately for me, the mass went on for about two hours so I wasn't able to attend the meeting for the Apostolate at McDo. In addition to this, my music classes ended at about 6pm because the songs I thought were to be presented by the kids on their Christmas Party this coming Dec. 17, 2005. I was about to tell Abby that I might not make it to the movie marathon when I received a message from her telling me that she has prepared dinner for us. Of course, I decided to come. Food is definitely a temptation I cannot resist!!! hehehe :)

The movie marathon turned out to be a karaoke contest. The only movie we got to watch was "Fever Pitch." The movie was so-so.

I was able to go home at 11am today. The moment I got home, I fell asleep. I was sooo tired. Who wouldn't be? The weekend did not prove very restful (although it was very enjoyable!!!).

... be right back... have to go to mass now...

thank god it's friday!!!

i'm sooo tired...

i was not able to sleep very well last night...

hope i can sleep tight tonight...

good night, sleep tight, take care, cheers!