yesterday...

unforgetable orals quote: "Where is God?"
unforgetable number: 83
unfogetable movie: Sky Captain
unforgetable movie quote: "Camera lens"
unfogetable corny joke: Q - "Ano ang mas malaki sa city?" A - ocho

He's so nice!!! As in!!! If he gets really old and he needs somebody to take care of him. I'd gladly volunteer. It would be an honor!

I had my orals today for Philo104 (morality). Fr. Que's my morality teacher. He was super just. And he helps students. If you forget anything, he'd help you remember it. So "justice as fairness." So magis. I like him! I want to take him again for my ME elective - Business Ethics. But my random number for next sem is 415... sad.

When it was my turn, he called out my name and he pointed to the space in the middle of the Office of Admission and Aid and told me to do my orals there. The girl who was working in one of the cubicles said, "Fr. tinatakot mo naman eh." And we ended up laughing. I guess that was one good way of making me feel comfortable - for taking the fear away.

I picked thesis statement number 2 but he had me explain Plato and then had me relate it to Aristotle and Aquinas. I had trouble with Aquinas - more specifically, I had trouble with the tendencies and the precepts of natural law (never really understood them). But he helped me. But I was a little too hesitant to accept the help. I was too afraid it was a trap (when you spent years of being challenged by your teachers... you learn). I wish I said yes instead of hestitate. Nevertheless, he was good.

After my orals he said, "O, Anna tapos na" and I said, "yes."

He's really nice. He makes you want to do magis.

I will miss my Philo class as I have always missed them. I like Philo. My brain works and I become. hehehe

Magis. I like the idea of Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam. I like Ateneo. I am thankful. I want to do more. I want to become more of myself.

I woke up this morning realizing how much I missed Ateneo Peer Counsellor's Group (ACPG and not PEERS). I missed staying at our little room in the Guidance Office from 1:00 pm to 3:00 pm. I missed having lively conversations with Maam Tere, Sir Ali, and Sir Erwin. I miss my twin sister, Kate (I think with her very busy schedule at present, she forgot she was first my PC twin sister before anything else). But what I miss most of all, were the people I got to hang out with during my PC shift (1-3 pm, MWF), Pia (Kate and I's baby piglet), Jovinne, Paula (my lola hehehe ), Abi (my mommy), and Dic.

FYI: the baby, mommy, and lola thingies are part of the org's "we are one big family" (second home) promotion. During phase 3 trainings, the new members get mothers to "induct" them to the org. Kate and I have the same mom, that's why we were sisters. But then, because, during the phase 1 and 2 trainings, it would seem as if we thought alike and we were inseparable, we became twin sisters. During phase 3, our mom was Pia but then, before phase 3, I had Abi as my acting mom (and Abi's mom was Paula that's why she's lola). So, we decided to called Pia baby piglet instead. Piglet because she likes pink --> our "Pretty in Pink" baby.

Anyways, I miss the PC room. I miss my shift partners: Abi (1-2) and Dic (2-3) [or was it the other way around Dic first and then Abi... I don't remember]. You know what the nice thing about having a room and a shift is? The nice thing is that you are "forced" to get to know your partner. Before the room shifts, Dic, along with his two other friends Martz and Vic, "intimidated" me (because they were soooo articulate). I was afraid I'd say something wrong and they would go bite my head off. But as I got to know them, especially Dic, during my shift, I realized how nice they were.

Most of the time, during my shift: I'd talk to Paula and Jovinne on just about anything (songs, clothes, nails, boys, graduation requirements, subjects, teachers, ideas, etc.); Pia, Jovinne and I would "coerce" (not the right word) Dic to tell us about his love life; talk about Camigin with Dic; solve opman problems with Abi; have a joke-time with Sir Ali; sleep (I remember I had an OR long test after my PC shift once and I was very sleepy I knew that if I took the test without sleeping first, there was a great probability I would fall asleep. So the solution: there was a sofo inside our PC room, I lied down and because my PC shift partner, Dic, was so nice, he turned the lights off so I could sleep well and wished me good night...if i'm not mistaken, I think during that time he was supposed to study for a quiz...I wonder how he was able to do that when the lights were off. But this just goes to show how missable the people in APCG are.); and of course, do interviews, go counselling and the likes.

At present, there is PEERS. I miss APCG.

I'm so terrified with what is to come:
- marketing panel grade, marketing final marks
- philo reporting, philo lt, philo paper, philo orals, philo final marks
- theo paper, theo reporting, theo orals, theo final marks
- pom reporting, pom final marks
- or reporting, or final marks
- fin lt, fin final marks

It feels as if I'm floating in air - ungrounded; one thing after another; no stopping; seems like eternity.

I want sembreak!!!

To finish our POM paper, Maia and I went to Aumega Works, Inc.'s factory at PEC Compound, Don Mariano Santos Avenue, Brgy. San Isidro, Angono, Rizal. We had a field trip. We rode the jeep from Aurora to the San Isidro Church and then got a tricycle to Aumega. It was fun! It was an adventure.

The mountain view was nice!!! Reminds me of the time when me, dadi, mumi, levy, and audi kept on land-travelling from Gensan to Davao and sometimes to Butuan. There was once we land-travelled from Gensan to Baguio. My butt ached from hours of sitting down, but it was worth it! Hay, I miss the days.

The air in Aumega was cool. It made my day alright. I also got to see my favorite animals to chase: chickens. Obviously, I tried chasing them. It was fun! I have been doing it ever since I remembered and it never fails to amuse me.

I learned something very important from my visit at Aumega: as always, it is still the simple things that never fails to make my day. "The first leaves off a tree...the tunder and rain...how I love the simple things, the simple things just are...the simple things are free." Beauty is in every simple thing. Simplicity is the key.

being stretched to my limits...

i'm at the edge of a cliff... trying to hold on...wishing i could fly...

my whole body's numb...i'm too tired to feel anything...

i want to sleep...but the toughts of what i still have to do keep me awake...

i lie awake in bed listening as my head try to organize the things i am yet to do...

i am angry...

i'm fighting a battle all by myself...it seems so cold...

i'm tired...i want to give up...but i know i must not...

there is still a lot to do...

one day at a time, anna, one day at a time...