When I said I wanted school to start because I was dead bored, I wasn't expecting things to turn out this way. Instead of bringing up my grades, they're sinking lower. Ever since school started it's been trouble after trouble.

First trouble: Nu Skin! It's a network marketing company!!! Yup, you read it right... network marketing. Jebb Peria invited my dad to hear Nu Skin's BOM and even though mumi didn't want to take part of the company's direct selling marketing strategy, dadi was interested. Dadi joined, recruited me, paid for my business builder pack when...

Second trouble: Dadi died. (I don't think I should elaborate)

Third trouble: As much as I want to finish what dadi started (since he filed his LOI in Nu Skin and bought products to complete his LOI month... when he shouldn't have, btw), Nu Skin is turning less of a dream and more of a nightmare. The company's great, really, and the products are good... it's the people, however, I cannot and have not reconciled with. Though I know Jebb's there to help me out (since he is my upline and my dad's sponsor), I know he's not going to last forever. One day Jebb is leave me for myself...I can even feel that he has started doing so already. Jebb won't be there to help for the rest of my living days in Nu Skin. When I become executive, I know, he will cease to be the nice person that he is... though I am hoping against hope that he won't...reality check though - he will...

Fourth trouble: I am about to spend big bucks tomorrow for Nu Skin and I will be hoping the money I will spend will come back to me!!! (Now, beat that!)

Fifth trouble: really bad grades...

Sixth trouble: I respect Daniel and Anne for being lapis executives already given that they are still fourth year college students. They're great in Nu Skin and I think they have found the business of their dreams. Good for them. Now... the problem is... Daniel and Anne are great netorking leaders but not academic leaders... and as I've said with my past journal entries, I badly want to raise my grades up. (in other worlds, stop the "pangugulit!!!"... stop asking me "how is aj? how is pia? how is melody?" ... like hell, how am I suppose to know how they are? I am not their bodyguard!!!)

Seventh trouble: Jebb told me last night (or was it early this morning... time check: 12:36 am) that he'd call... I'm waiting for his call! I have a lot of rantings to do!!! Urg! Such irresponsibility!!!

...bitaw, if truth be told... of all the people I have met in Nu Skin, Jebb's the nicest and I like him a lot...but i wish he'd stop being late, everytime... i wish he'd stop saying "it's gonna be ok" when we both know that it won't be ok. word of honor, mr. peria --> it's something I hope you'd learn to treasure.

urgg... i'm too depressed to go on talking... i'd better get my sleep... i'm up for a nightmare tomorrow. :(